痛而不苦

剛剛從聖德肋撒醫院回來, 但看不到醫生…..

事緣今早個頭又突然不適, 感覺像有人用槍射中太陽穴, 痛楚隨著神經線四方八面向左臉、左腦及左頸伸延, 疼痛中帶點點麻痺感。中午時候, 發現麻痺感伸延至左手手臂, 覺得狀況有點異常, 便去了醫院一趟。

但原來聖德肋撒醫院今天下午沒有腦科醫生當席, 之前幫我做開腦手術的馮醫生又full晒, 最快要7月7日才有位…
見痛感及麻痹感開始減退了, 就唯有回家休息吧。現在感覺沒大礙,大家不用擔心 ! 但這種痛通常是突如其來的, 我也無法判斷自己有無事。現在, 唯有盡快約到腦科醫生, 聽聽他的專業意見。

💭後記: 當我頭劇痛的時候, 我想起之前學習過的技巧, 盡量以抽離及不加批判的心, 去客觀覺察自己的痛, 令自己痛而不苦。

另外, 也想起以下一個故事:

Suffering is different from pain. The Buddha explained the difference with a story.
”Once,” the Buddha told his followers, ”there was a man who was shot by an arrow. How do you think the man felt?” asked the Buddha.

”Hurt! in pain!” replied his followers.

“Right,” agreed the Buddha.
”Now this unfortunate man was soon struck by a second arrow. Now how do you think he felt?”

”Much worse!” replied the followers.

”Just so!” agreed the Buddha again.
”The name of that second arrow is suffering.”

Pain is inevitable. It is a part of the bargain of being alive. But suffering is optional !